again

i cannot remember the order of particular events

after i have singled out one event

where did it come from?

not sure what the purpose of remembering everything is

i feel like my twitters are bad

feel sick of myself, life seems so bad

i wish that 75% of my blog didn't exist

the snow on all the sidewalks is terrible

why am i not writing more, nothing new happens

seems like i cannot broaden my perspective

i am aware there is a broader perspective

but then it feels like i am hungry

returning to original blogger personality

feel bad a lot and can't accept that i'll feel different

felt good for a little after thinking about the past

feel like xmas and xmas-eve

is going to be worse than a regular weekend

this post is going to make you not like this blog anymore

honestly felt my blog was being visited by a recruiter

today

my back hurts

posture seems really bad

not sure if i should stop here

or keep typing

not sure what to do at all

what am i going to do about keeping a steady income

feel like i look like a farm animal

i want to shower

but i showered today

at 430am

going to shower the next time it is 430am

my face looks unsymmetrical

okay i really want to stop making more lines

just seems so bad

sentences are not making me feel better

going to watch the rest of 'men who stare at goats' tonight

clooney

i can feel what it feels like to feel good

chinese cabbage

thnx jamie and zachary

(greatest people ever)

just got back from a reading in manhattan

hated it. not sure why i went.

don't remember anything i liked
remember it smelled like donuts in the venue
remember thinking 'how did i end up here'

all the sentences were very long. there was a lot of repetition.
people were laughing a lot during the questions part.
hated the people for some reason.

still have my winter hat on, and my jacket
sitting at my laptop

'liars in love' is a good story by richard yates
i felt like i needed to recreate something i read in the middle of one of the paragraphs

coming home from work i couldn't understand the prose in the middle part of it.
i felt angry. i stared a lot. i read a page and felt confused
and then stared and my face felt warm.

not sure what the point of this post is.

frostbite seems like one of the worst things to get.
it seems bad to get if you're not expecting it or something,
like if you're doing something 'normal'
and are not prepared exposure to extreme cold

it is worse, i think, if you get it on a mountain
and you get it so that it blackens like a whole appendage.

this is faint and meaningless and produced by Alex Balk

haha he sucks from miles ross on Vimeo.

been working on writing, working my day job, chilling, getting ready for the holidays
bought some stuff on ebay that i am excited for. two of the things came already.



hate WW2